This thing should've been written and posted yesterday, but well, my mind was completely occupied by matrices, trigonometry and other calamities yesterday. But in that midst of tedious formulas and repetitive numbers, I still got a chance to, well, somehow resolve the conflict I had yesterday... One thing that actually triggered the later discussion is the word 'kost'... Well, it's been uttered almost every time I had a conflict with my dad. Well, this time, the problem is about my being as a extremely introvert person who live in two worlds, always in hide, always in fear of asking and telling truths about things happening inside me. It's a problem as old as me. Hundreds of times discussed, hundreds of times confronted, hundreds of times denied. Hundreds of times troubled. Since I'm a complete hypocrite who hasn't got an ability to score myself, I need a help from someone who's so accustomed to respond to my distress signal. My dad. Things that I lear...